Agitated.

Yesterday was Monday. Mondays have a reputation of being difficult for many. I dragged myself into work and feelings of frustration lingered all day. I felt the old familiar feeling of pressure and the feeling of 'No matter how much I accomplish, I can't keep up with all I have to do.' I was given a tedious project at work with an unrealistic deadline. I expressed the fact that I would work on it and I would let my supervisor know when it is completed. The preferred answer here would've have been a promise to complete it that day. From past experience, I knew this was unrealistic and I can only do the best I can. This is still an uncomfortable part for me. I worked on the project all day and a headache ensued. Frustration continued. My face started to hurt slightly. The main gist of this task was to clean up pages and pages of tenant information in excel. The initial information is pulled from a system by another department. We are told that we should obtain this data from this 'other' department so that there is one version of the truth....so that we receive accurate information. The problem is the data comes to me in a scrambled, sloppy way and with deadline pressure added, I have to fix it all. Yesterday, I kept thinking of how irritating it to me when others provide sloppy work and Melissa has to spend hours cleaning it up. (I have tried before to make suggestions to improve the process. I have questionned the lack of efficiency. This was not well received and the backwards processes continue.) I did not complete the task yesterday. I did the best I could and I left for the day. Even with the many thoughts of all that is left for me to do, in both my work and day to day personal life, I decided to order take out for dinner, watch some TV and go to bed early. I realized that part of my agitation is this phase I am in. I am building my own business and that takes time and energy. I am excited to be healthy again so I can express creativity and blossom again. I have so many exciting thoughts and next steps to see goals accomplished yet in the meantime, I feel trapped and stifled much of the work day. Today is Tuesday. I feel rested and ready to tackle this ominous project again. I expect to finish it in the next few hours. I found a new perspective today. In my humble opinion, I am damn good at solving problems and fixing layouts and verifying accuracy of data. So although the subject matter is dry to me, I will feel honored today that I can do this task with excellence. My supervisor called out sick and her boss ran to me to handle other tasks too today. I feel confident and wiser than before. I will continue to keep my wellness as top priority throughout this process. Stay tuned for exciting updates on my cookie business and my Arbonne International business =o)